THE KICK

The other day in a lecture of Perspective Management, there was a question raised by our College Dean that "What is it that gives an immense positive energy, enthusiasm for all successful people to keep on performing, to keep stretching themselves to the endless limits?" Well, he said it is the KICK -- a push from within to do what is impossible as per ones boundaries, -- a force from within that motivates one to achieve the hardest of goals in ones life...

Pondering over the same line of thought (in the lecture and even after it), i found i had already experienced that phenomenon, that thought process, that push, that force from within and i was so much elated to know that i had experienced it without even knowing about it.

It was during my early engineering days, when i was forced circumstantially to choose Engineering over Medical due to financial problems prevaling at that time in my family. It was hard for me to accept the fact that i am doing something for which i was never prepared for. It was something within me, my soul, that was not satisified with what i was forced to do. And that caused irritation, frustation, zero concentration, low patience & all that things that sub-consciously hampered my growth as a human and as a student. 1st semester was over, results were out and obviously i fared "worse" not only "bad". 2nd sem came, due to humiliation that i suffered from my 1st sem results, i thought i should concentrate and study hard, but the sub-conscious mind being the ruler of the body, mind and soul, i just could not do anything to fare better and as it was expected out of me that time, i fared "worst"in my life so far...

By now, a year of engineering (25% of it ) was over and amongst the croud of elite people around me, I stood last. But, the fact that hurt me more was that i was a failure within myself, that i was a looser when it comes to fighting unpredictably difficult situations in life. It took me a week to understand that a situation that got my life in worse scenario was nothing as compared to the activities i was doing to make it just worst. Much unknown to me, but this self-realization gave me that push, that force from within to surpass all limits, all boundaries and come out as winner. It was "The KICK" which I define as "A Knock from InnerSelf that Causes Kainogenesis" Kainogenesis means
(a) introduction during embryonic development of characters or structure not present in the earlier evolutionary history of the strain or species (as addition of the placenta in mammalian evolution).
(b) the process of an individual organism growing organically; a purely biological unfolding of events involved in an organism changing gradually from a simple to a more complex level.
Similarly, from my definitions poit of view, "Kainogenesis means a process within ones self that creates a kind of energy which has capability to take oneself beyond expectations, to surpass all boundaries & to achieve all that one aims for."

Coming back to my life scenario then,

I realized that in order to do what i never thought of doing, it will take something that is invaluable to me, and I was prepared for it. I gave all that it took from me to achieve what i wanted. I sacrificed all that was entertaining to me but had no contribution to my life as a Good Student. I was much tensed for my results as i did not know that the path i chose was for myself to be successful would indeed yield expected results or not, but it was to my immense pleaseure got to know that i have fared well and was 5th in my class in 3rd sem.

But, wait folks, the Magic begins now, The Kick that I am discussing about is not limited here, that Kick is very greedy, it motivates you to surpass your ownself. The same happened with me, i was happy but not satisfied. The Kick within me (like an old wine) increased its intensity and motivated to perform even better. I stood 2nd in class in 4th sem, and was overall 2nd as well in 2nd year. Same happened in 3rd year as well. I ranked 2nd.

Now another dimension comes, the Kick not only motivates you in 1 direction, it brings about overall development in an individual experiencing that kick. Same happened with me... I actively took part in CSI's activities in college and was one day given the post of DJ-CSI, Vice-Charperson of 2005-06.

The Kick was so effective that i Topped my class in final year (Academic Kick) and was also an active member of CSI's Annual Regional Convention - Innovate'06 (Extra-Curricular Kick).

So, what happened simultaneously in my Life was, that i kept performing better and better academically and i kept rising in positions of extra-curricular importance. That Kick had so many effects on my life that i do not even realize it now, it is something that has become an integral part of myself.

It is much obvious to say that, what i am today is because of that Kick and now even if I try to remove or detach it from myself, i would not be able to and how can it be possible anyways? I just cant because ultimately, it is "A Knock from my InnerSelf that Caused my Kainogenesis" !!!